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Woooa. I'm alive... and all I post is some silly quiz!! muahahaha! [Sep. 5th, 2004|08:55 pm]
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and where did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. What's your nickname for me and explain why you picked it?
7. Describe me in one word
8. What was your first impression of me?
9. Do you still think about me that way now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Have you ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal to see what I say about you?
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@&$^%$#&#&$%#@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [Aug. 11th, 2004|04:57 pm]
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[mood |bouncybouncy]

SHAMBHALA starts Friday @ 12:00pm. There's nothing elso I can say about this, because my excitement for this annual party is indescribable.... Shambhala is my ultimate Paradise -- it's not where you go, but it's how you feel for a single moment and that moment lasts forever.... sorry had to throw that Beach quote in there... but it's the truth.
We leave tomorrow at 12. Probably staying over in Golden so I can see my wolfies, and then head to the party. I will be back next Wednesday... see you all then!
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2004|10:33 pm]
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[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |"freek-a-leek" Petey Pablo]

I decided to resurrect my livejournal. Although, now I don't think I'll have much time for it. I applied at Timmies on Wednesday...and they called me right back. I start tomorrow night... that's right I work nightshifts. This is okay, because I'm nocturnal anyways.... ~_^
I will be getting about 32 hours a week there, on top of the 25 daytime hours at Superstore... yes, I realize that my social life may be ending very abruptly *sniff sniff*, but it's money that I need!
Matt and Jon also came over today and dropped off some canvases. They both want me to do some paintings for them, so that will be nice. I've been wanting some sort of artistic project this summer! And the money will also help. $_$
Lots has been going on since I last wrote... Went to Banff last weekend with Shannon, Aleah and her friend Tara. That was super cool fun times. I can't believe how many times I've been to Banff this year... and I'm going to be going there again! It never gets boring though, I love that place. I am addicted to the wilderness. I would have liked to have gone hiking a bit, but if I did, I wouldn't have been able to gone shopping, and I needed to... *mom's birthday and all*...
Maybe next time. I know Pat and I are always talking about going on a camping trip and doing a bit of that, so maybe one weekend this summer.
That also reminds me about everyone talking about Europe. I soooo want to go, and Pat wants me to go. He was planning on going with Andrea, but we're not sure if she's still going. At first I figured I would totally not have enough money but now, with all the money I may be making, it looks like a possibility!! Yay!!! I really want to spend a lot of time in Ireland, because of me heritage *and faeries and other mystical beings live there!!! :D*. Also Ibiza *party central* and Greece for the classical history! I'd like to explore the "Mesopotamian" lands... <333
Niffers -- I also may have lotsa money to come visit you finally!! <333 Maybe at the end of the summer before school!

I also really want to go to the Wolf Sanctuary in Golden, since they have a new pack member and he's only like 8 weeks old. SOOOOO CUTE!!!<333
My room is complete, minus a bed *very vital part of the room, I know*... but it looks good. I like the colours. Kristian and I went to Ikea last Friday and bought lots of stuff! I got a paper floor lamp, a black side table, some frames, and candles all for under $100... so that was a sweet deal. I also baught a bunch of frames from Superstore yesterday to put my many pictures in. Aleah and I came back to my place last night after ice-cream and looked through 'em all. Oh man, we had some good laughs. We actually made a pile just for all the goofy/freaky faces that people make! Maybe I'll make a webpage dedicated to them.. but we'll see. I really have no time to my liesure-self anymore!
OH well, such is life hey?

Ben got back from Greece the other day, and texted me... wanting to go out for some drinks and such... so I shall do that soon, I want to hear about his trip!!!

Oh yeah, Shambhala is in less than 4 weeks away!!! So excited!!<333
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Good-Bye Little Journal.... [Jun. 26th, 2004|09:37 am]
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[mood |discontentdiscontent]

Too many people read my journal. So, I think I'm going to shut her down for awhile, I just feel a little uneasy about having it now. I guess I could make most of my entries private, but then nobody would be able to read them accept me, so what's the point??? I would rather have a real diary, so I can doodle and stuff.
I just don't feel comfortable with being dragged into a room, and questioned about my writings... I mean, isn't that what the comment section is for??? I'm sure I shouldn't even be writing about this, because you're going to read it, but it's not a bad thing, it's just an uncomfortable thing, and I of course wouldn't get into anything last night because well, there was places to go, and people to see.
I re-read the entry I had made a few days back, and it was so discrete. I don't believe in slandering people, so I never named names, but unless you are guilty of those things, than you should know it wasn't you.
I don't know, it wasn't a big deal, just more weird and uneasy... and makes me feel like my journal is... judged. And that creeps me out, so no more journal for me. Sorry guys!
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AAARRRRGGGG!!!!!!! [Jun. 24th, 2004|01:04 am]
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[mood |hating people mood]

Oh my god. If I ever hear someone call her "Coke-head" or something rude again, I will seriously get violent. If doing a drug once, or twice even, means that you constantly deserve a good reminder of your mistake(s), through cruel tongue lashings and name calling, then what do people think of me? I'm sick of the people around me constantly attacking my best friend for the choices she has made in the past, and how it must make her a horrible person. As far as I'm concerned everyone is blind, as not to see the incredible person that I have come to know over the past 8 years and her amazing qualities. I might not agree with some of her lifestyle choices, but she's my best friend, and a part of me, so when you insult her, you are insulting me. If she's a bad person because she's been experimental with drugs, then I guess I'm a pretty bad person too... don't forget, I too have had my experiments... maybe Ecstacy isn't AS bad as Cocaine, but whatever, they're all chemical drugs that are deteriorating to ourselves. I'm just so angry at people and how judgemental they can be. We're not all perfect you know!
Grrr. I just had to rant... it's been going on too long. Nobody cares about what really might be going on with her, or me, they look at the surface; and maybe if you did take the time to understand, you'd think differently. Think before you utter such hypocritical and ruthless accusations, next time people, honestly, I'm sick of it all.

... Yeah, wings sucked tonight. People and their mouths...
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Still Sick.... ~_~ [Jun. 23rd, 2004|10:36 am]
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[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |"whiskey girl" Toby Keith]

I spent 3 hours at the clinic yesterday because I woke up and couldn't swallow. I couldn't even drink water! I knew already I had a virus and throat infection, but this time the doctor told me I had ulcers on the back of my throat!!!! Um... okay... how did that happen??? She told me it 'could' be the foods I'm eating, but usually it's caused by acids. It's weird I've never had them before, because my stomach hasn't been upset as much lately... even though I still have heartburn. But I guess that's what they're from -- my acid reflex problem. Not cool. They are sooo painful and I felt like such crap all day yesterday. I felt a bit better after napping and showering, and I had to go to work, which sucked, but at least I felt a bit better. Today, I still feel yucky, but I can tell I'm getting better.
I just hope I'm better by the weekend... but more importantly, MONDAY. I am NOT missing Paul Okenfold!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish the weather didn't suck today, I want to lay in the sun. Christy and I did on Monday.. it was sooo nice. She also decided that she probably won't move in with Anna at the end of the month, which means she's probably going to stay with me! It'll be especially easier for her, if she goes to school, which she wants to. I'm pretty excited!
I definitely consider her moving in a type of blessing because it's acted as a distraction. My life was sort of rocky there a couple weeks back, and finding out that your best friend since Junior High is going to be living with you, is a really comforting feeling. We are so much alike, and have never had a disagreement, and it's great to know she's coming 'home', so we can just do silly mundane things like watch TV, etc. I feel so much happier since this, probably because I've removed myself from the negativites that were surrounding me, or just the potential of any high-school type drama that may occur. Things were just too crazy, and I didn't want to be part of the childish backstabbing and lies anymore; being involved just caused devistation and stress. I then talked to one of my friends on Sunday when we were downtown, and he told me some things. I wasn't suprised in a sense, but maybe a little, I guess I was more amused because I hadn't ever heard of anything that funny before. That's what it is.. just funny. I can't think of any other way to describe it than that, because you can't even look at it seriously. The fact that this chick totally backstabbed me, didn't suprise me, because she's been doing it for the past 2 months, I mean hell, she even backstabbed me to my Mom... who does that? I mean.. really?!??! My Mom since then, also has no respect for her. I've finally realized what everyone means about her. I guess I just give too many people the benefit of the doubt, and like endless chances to redeem themselves. I guess I'm too nice... possibly naive??? So then, I guess I learn the hard way... *sigh*.
So yeah, the fact that she backstabbed me -- not suprising.
The reason for it... amusing as hell, and I say this because there is no point in stressing about it. I'd rather laugh it off anyways, because it's about the stupidest thing ever!!
LIFE LESSON LEARNED: People are unpredictable. No matter how nice of a person you may be, people can still be assholes. Life is too short to worry about what people think, or to worry about pleasing everyone, and if you do, you'll never please yourself.Life is full of harsh lessons, and sometimes they're necessary... but they should make you stronger, or better some how, and we shouldn't dwell on the mistakes we've made, just learn and move on. Everyone should just enjoy life as it is, and stop worrying about everyone else and what they are doing. Accept eachother for who they are, even if it means accepting flaws in our personalities.
-- John Lennon said " Life is what happens when you're making other plans". I think this fits somehow. If you dwell on things that don't matter, or worry about the little things, life will just pass you by, and you'll miss it.
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*sniffle* *sniffle* [Jun. 19th, 2004|11:51 am]
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[mood |sicksick]

I really figured I just had allergies, but I definitely think I have a cold. Who gets colds in the SUMMER?!??! I'm not impressed... especially since it's all in my nasel passeges... it makes me sooo tired and grumpy... but whatever, I'm not going to let it ruin my day! It's supposed to be 27 out today, and my pool is up and running. Christy and I are going to sit out there all day, and just relax! Unfortunately paradise gets ruined when I have to work today at 5... but such is life I guess.
Last night I worked and so did Aleah, so we decided to do something... thought we might go to Whyte ave, but we ended up just watching TV and didn't really drink too much. I was pretty tired and could hardly keep my eyes open. My dad came over early yesterday and helped Christy and I move our stuff. She needed the truck for her big stuff, and so did I and we weren't going to be able to use it next week, so we had to get most of the moving done yesterday. Aleah helped me with some more of it, since she had the beast, and we were going there anyway. Hmmm, now I think there's only my mattress left, and a couple little things I don't care about really, but I'll get them later on. No big deal.
My room here is looking nice. I did the feature wall, but then accidently spilled nice purple paint on my carpet... that looks pretty...haha... whooops! My basement looks crazy... my shit is everywhere.. but I guess I'll organize some of it, before Christy comes home.... better get on that, she said she'd be home by 1!
Peace out all~
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2004|02:26 pm]
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[mood |contentcontent]
[music |DJ Dan -- Beats for Freaks.]

Man I'm really tired. I didn't even have a late night last night. Aleah, Shannon, and I just stayed in and watched Ginger Snaps 2. That was pretty fun, after that we just channel surfed a bit, and found some pretty amusing things. We watched Babar... you know, I'm really convinced that Pompador(sp?) was gay. Seriously, I honestly thought that elephant was female when I was a kid, but it's a guy! And he did always hang out with Cornelius...... @_@

Okay enough analyzing stupid cartoons....
I was supposed to go home this morning but my mom was running late so she couldn't drive me to my house.. oh well, I just sat on here and passed time by! Paying attention to my journal is good... (:

Tonight Aleah and I are going out with Andie and her girlfriends from work to Chili's... that should be fun! And Chili's is pretty good! Then I'll go back home and grab a few things I might need to go to Calgary with, and that'll give me a chance to tidy up a few things around the house. My bathroom probably needs some attention by now, but who knows. I'm pretty excited about going to Calgary tomorrow! We're going to pick up Pete's sister from the airport, then we'll probably go to Banff on Monday!! I'll also get to visit a little with Nicole, so I'm pretty pumped!! :)

Christy phoned me yesterday while I was buying some paint for my room, and seemed really upset, because Kristian doesn't really want her there, which I suppose is understandable. She's stuck for a place to live until August 1st, so my mom is setting up a room for her, and she's gonna live with me for the next 6 weeks (:
That'll be really fun, I hardly get to see her, so at least if she lives with me, the chances are higher! lol!!
That's pretty much all that's new with me.. work is.. well work, nothing really ever changes there... I'm trying to find a second job, but we'll see...
I dyed my hair blonde yesterday, I think it looks pretty cool and I'm happy with it.. so yah, things are looking a lot happier lately!! :)
But I think I'm going to go get some rest, have a little nap before going out later! You all have a good weekend! Later ALL.
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I wish ripping holes in peoples' sternums was not ILLEGAL.... [Jun. 2nd, 2004|06:04 pm]
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[mood |apatheticapathetic]
[music |Silence is golden...]

By the subject title and my pic choice, we can all guess what type of mood I'm in here. Anyone who knows me well, and who has talked to me in the last few days, knows exactly what I'm talking about...

This is the exact point at where I wish I could just wait it all out in my room, and not associate with people...

My life seemed to turn into a semi-highschool drama for about two days, but even thought it was just that, I was still devistated by it...I could hardly sleep or eat. I am a bit better now, and I did lose 5 pounds from this. It's a good weight loss system hey? Post Traumatic stress = skinny! Yes, just make my life a living hell... woooo. *sigh*

In other news, that is much MUCH more exciting and positive, I got my acceptance letter into the U of A BDes Program. That's probably the most happiest part of my life right now.. it gives me something realy positive to look forward to.
My room here at my old house is pretty empty, cept for this here computer...but I'm planning to paint it, so that when I move back home, it'll be so nice!
I'm doing my back wall a deep purple and the other walls a zen green... I'm turning my little room into a walk-in closet so that I can bring my other desk in here... it'll look really cool. I'm going for the Zen theme just cuz it'll make everything more relaxing... and I need relaxing for school!

Well I think I'm off to go get ready... we're going out for wings @ Yesterdays tonight... MMMM wings :)
Peace out all!
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(no subject) [May. 21st, 2004|01:45 am]
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[mood |drunkdrunk]

Hey all.. been like a month since i've typed in this thinger. Wooooa. I'm a little drunk just so ya know... I'm at Christy's house using her nice new 'puter. All moved in at me knew house.. it's awesome... my room looks super cool... all purple and leopard printy.. :)

Niffers... I'm hoping I can make it to vancouver soonh. I get $700 in a month..hehe.

but i guess i better go be social.. so i'll let u all go. nothing really knew for me... so i guess that's all anyhwasys!! :)
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