|Still Sick.... ~_~
||[Jun. 23rd, 2004|10:36 am]
♥ ♥ ♥ Dark Diva ♥ ♥ ♥
|||||"whiskey girl" Toby Keith||]|
I spent 3 hours at the clinic yesterday because I woke up and couldn't swallow. I couldn't even drink water! I knew already I had a virus and throat infection, but this time the doctor told me I had ulcers on the back of my throat!!!! Um... okay... how did that happen??? She told me it 'could' be the foods I'm eating, but usually it's caused by acids. It's weird I've never had them before, because my stomach hasn't been upset as much lately... even though I still have heartburn. But I guess that's what they're from -- my acid reflex problem. Not cool. They are sooo painful and I felt like such crap all day yesterday. I felt a bit better after napping and showering, and I had to go to work, which sucked, but at least I felt a bit better. Today, I still feel yucky, but I can tell I'm getting better.
I just hope I'm better by the weekend... but more importantly, MONDAY. I am NOT missing Paul Okenfold!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish the weather didn't suck today, I want to lay in the sun. Christy and I did on Monday.. it was sooo nice. She also decided that she probably won't move in with Anna at the end of the month, which means she's probably going to stay with me! It'll be especially easier for her, if she goes to school, which she wants to. I'm pretty excited!
I definitely consider her moving in a type of blessing because it's acted as a distraction. My life was sort of rocky there a couple weeks back, and finding out that your best friend since Junior High is going to be living with you, is a really comforting feeling. We are so much alike, and have never had a disagreement, and it's great to know she's coming 'home', so we can just do silly mundane things like watch TV, etc. I feel so much happier since this, probably because I've removed myself from the negativites that were surrounding me, or just the potential of any high-school type drama that may occur. Things were just too crazy, and I didn't want to be part of the childish backstabbing and lies anymore; being involved just caused devistation and stress. I then talked to one of my friends on Sunday when we were downtown, and he told me some things. I wasn't suprised in a sense, but maybe a little, I guess I was more amused because I hadn't ever heard of anything that funny before. That's what it is.. just funny. I can't think of any other way to describe it than that, because you can't even look at it seriously. The fact that this chick totally backstabbed me, didn't suprise me, because she's been doing it for the past 2 months, I mean hell, she even backstabbed me to my Mom... who does that? I mean.. really?!??! My Mom since then, also has no respect for her. I've finally realized what everyone means about her. I guess I just give too many people the benefit of the doubt, and like endless chances to redeem themselves. I guess I'm too nice... possibly naive??? So then, I guess I learn the hard way... *sigh*.
So yeah, the fact that she backstabbed me -- not suprising.
The reason for it... amusing as hell, and I say this because there is no point in stressing about it. I'd rather laugh it off anyways, because it's about the stupidest thing ever!!
LIFE LESSON LEARNED: People are unpredictable. No matter how nice of a person you may be, people can still be assholes. Life is too short to worry about what people think, or to worry about pleasing everyone, and if you do, you'll never please yourself.Life is full of harsh lessons, and sometimes they're necessary... but they should make you stronger, or better some how, and we shouldn't dwell on the mistakes we've made, just learn and move on. Everyone should just enjoy life as it is, and stop worrying about everyone else and what they are doing. Accept eachother for who they are, even if it means accepting flaws in our personalities.
-- John Lennon said " Life is what happens when you're making other plans". I think this fits somehow. If you dwell on things that don't matter, or worry about the little things, life will just pass you by, and you'll miss it.